Vacation of the Heart

Here I am
going to far
to know where I stand.
Forcing meaning
where emptiness belonged.
These words of charm
should raise alarm
but just puts you more at ease.

This relationship's arranged,
it is fabricated.
This vacation of the heart
is something I created.
The stage was set
right down to your reply
manipulating love
into just another lie.

But thing's changed,
I know I did,
studying spinning
highlights on reel
editing indifference
and insecurity.
I find I like what I see
and I love what I lost.

So with a will
there is a way
and this dog
will have his day.
Let me leave with a warning:
eager arms will look to console
and anxious eyes will wait until
you lose control
enough to think
you can find yourself
by cutting out the best.
You've furthered the memory,
you kept me cold.
You can leave now,
I am finally numb.